Today I am 18 weeks pregnant and can say that TODAY has started off really well. Since week 5 of my pregnancy I have been one sick girl. Thanks to medication, a fabulous husband and the best of friends I have survived these rough seas.
I did not expect morning sickness to be so bad or to arrive with such a wallop! I knew my mom experienced morning sickness with both of her pregnancies but never did I imagine that morning sickness could bring your world to a screaching halt. And that my dear blog readers is exactly what happened to my world. My world, as I knew it, came to a screaching halt.
Morning sickness lastest throughout any given day and for weeks I never knew what to expect when my feet hit the ground in the morning. Days were difficult and things were most certainly not "normal" but you see I made things worse. You see I lost my focus. Instead of staying in the Word one scripture at a time and leaning upon the strength of the Lord I tried to do it myself and I wallowed. I wallowed in my circumstances, I used my sickness as an excuse to not be faithful in the Word.
I look back now and definately see that I could have (and would have) fared the storm so much easier had I stayed faithful in my reading the Word. I don't think I would have thrown up less often or suddenly felt fabulous but I know that all the emotions, feelings, frustrations and hurt I felt should have been laid at the feet of my Father. Instead I clung to them like a binkie I could not be without.
I am so very thankful for Abba Father that never left my side even though I forgot Him. I look back and see HIS faithfulness all over the past 13 weeks and it brings tears of gratitude to my eyes. I can even see how He used our sweet dog Maddie to be a joy and comfort to me on the worst of days!
I cannot sit here and say I won't ever stray or ignore my time in the Word again but I surely hope I have learned that no matter what circumstances might be in life I always want and need the Lord in my everyday life. No matter what.
Thanks for letting me be honest and open here. Hope you are having a blessed week!
Here's to a new season in pregnancy and anticipating the arrival of our sweet baby boy in December.