Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Could it be? A new season?

Today I am 18 weeks pregnant and can say that TODAY has started off really well. Since week 5 of my pregnancy I have been one sick girl. Thanks to medication, a fabulous husband and the best of friends I have survived these rough seas.

I did not expect morning sickness to be so bad or to arrive with such a wallop! I knew my mom experienced morning sickness with both of her pregnancies but never did I imagine that morning sickness could bring your world to a screaching halt. And that my dear blog readers is exactly what happened to my world. My world, as I knew it, came to a screaching halt.

Morning sickness lastest throughout any given day and for weeks I never knew what to expect when my feet hit the ground in the morning. Days were difficult and things were most certainly not "normal" but you see I made things worse. You see I lost my focus. Instead of staying in the Word one scripture at a time and leaning upon the strength of the Lord I tried to do it myself and I wallowed. I wallowed in my circumstances, I used my sickness as an excuse to not be faithful in the Word.

I look back now and definately see that I could have (and would have) fared the storm so much easier had I stayed faithful in my reading the Word. I don't think I would have thrown up less often or suddenly felt fabulous but I know that all the emotions, feelings, frustrations and hurt I felt should have been laid at the feet of my Father. Instead I clung to them like a binkie I could not be without.

I am so very thankful for Abba Father that never left my side even though I forgot Him. I look back and see HIS faithfulness all over the past 13 weeks and it brings tears of gratitude to my eyes. I can even see how He used our sweet dog Maddie to be a joy and comfort to me on the worst of days!

I cannot sit here and say I won't ever stray or ignore my time in the Word again but I surely hope I have learned that no matter what circumstances might be in life I always want and need the Lord in my everyday life. No matter what.

Thanks for letting me be honest and open here. Hope you are having a blessed week!
Here's to a new season in pregnancy and anticipating the arrival of our sweet baby boy in December.


She McCord said...

i love your honesty!!

Psalm 139:1-7, 13-16, 23-24 said...

Love it!!! So glad you're feeling better!!!!

LisaShaw said...

The sharing of your heart is precious. We've all been there MORE than once in our walk with GOD but as I always say, as soon as we become aware, we must get ourselves back on track with the leading of the Holy thankful for GOD's grace and mercy.

You are SPECIAL and I am praying for you and that precious baby and your hubby!!!

Love ya!

Cheryl Barker said...

God is such a gracious Father to us, isn't He? So glad you're feeling better -- and learning spiritual lessons as you go through this new and exciting time in your life. Blessings!

Kort said...

You are so precious and such an inspiration. I am so blessed to call you my friend! Keep pressing on toward the goal :)

Sarah said...

Also love your honesty and such a great reminder to us all for everything!

Our SS teacher said a couple weeks ago: "Don't live on yesterday's prayer life." (this could be yesterday's Bible reading, etc too!)

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